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smile when there's no reason to

there's no telling where we'll be in a day or in a week
and there's no promises of peace or of happiness
well is this why you cling to every little thing
and polverize and derrange all your senses
maybe life is a song but you're scared to song along
until the very ending

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Hello. My name is Alec.

underneath the clouds

I've been longing for a stormy day since summer began, I guess i got it. I find storms and cloudy days very profound, during these darker-than-usual moments, I can reflect and think about things... y'know?
I can let out what's inside of me. I don't cry, but I could stare outside for hours and drown in deep thoughts. I guess I could say, I'm happy when it rains.

Monday, June 29, 2009 @ 1:16 PM

smiles from heartache

This year has been quick, and many things have changed. I've fallen in and out of love. Been involved in some kind of drama. But I've grown for the better, I think. There are many many things this past year that I never ever want to relive. But I'm pretty thankful for what I've gained.
I had my share of ups and downs. I've had trust issues, maybe I still do. But step-by-step I'm growing out my shell. I think this year was a breakthrough for me, for many reasons I have yet to identify. But to make it easier I've made a list of all the things I've learned.

I've learned...

to relax a little
to see through people
to look at the bright side
to live every moment of my life fully
not to care what others think of me
not to trust just anyone, because some people are just made up of lies
to express what I feel
that taking people for granted is never a good thing

To sum it all up, this year was a disastrously fun year and I wouldn't have done it any differently.

@ 8:45 AM

Six

Six months, two days, nineteen hours, twenty minutes since I realized I love you. I'm a mess, too much of a mess for you to even notice. I can hardly breathe without you, I can't be me without you, the word 'me' is nto even familiar anymore. I get cold feet, I give cold shoulders, I'm stubborn. I'm not perfect, I'm actually full of flaws. The list of things that I could write of why I think you could never be with someone like me is just endless. I can't get enough of you, chills run through my spine everytime I see you smile. Your happiness is more of a priority than my own, I learned to put someone else before myself for the first time.

I can take the pain, trust me. For the longest time, that's all I ever felt. Everyday my situation gets worse, do you know how much it stings when I see you love him? Do you know how many times I felt the pain of heartbreak? Do you know how numb I get whenever I see you? So many questions you haven't even notice, it seems to me that your heart cease to exist sometimes. I will never blame you though. I never asked to love me back.

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One day, one blink. I'll already be gone.

Sunday, March 1, 2009 @ 4:19 PM